Dark Side

I've just come to a realization. I'm a dark person. It's true. I am also ridiculously optimistic and have some crazy style sense but I love dark and slightly "tragic" images and very moody, heavy music along with some light and bubbly of both, as well. I knew this about myself all along but during some dark period of my life I tried to get all of that out of my world and my head because I thought it would keep me from becoming as happy as I could possibly be. Ofcourse now I realize that's a silly idea because I need all the things that make me happy to become the happiest I could ever be. My favorite ballet is called Cruel World but I also like b-boy dance crew style. I love CSS but also the Black Keys and CocoRosie (they're kind of both, aren't they?). And as much as I like pretty images full of color and light that look almost too good to have come from reality, I looooooove these.

These are Australian mug shots from the Justice and Police Museum. Which I first found here (larger, better resolution and many more images), and recently saw again a little article about on npr's website.

from the Selby

Someone told me once that there are book distributors that sell books by the foot. As in twelve inches worth of books. He said people purchase books that way to decorate if they don't have a personal collection but like the look. Instead of ugly ceramic animals or something. Makes me wonder if there's someone out there who would hire me to select a reading list of books that I think are good, or that sound really good to me, and to find the ones with the most beautiful and interesting bindings. So that they had a library not only of substance but of beauty. Something that if they ever felt the desire to read, they could choose something and be more or less guaranteed it would be worthwhile, and that if they never chose to read, would look beautiful in their house. I have a few books like this, books I've always wanted to read but haven't and of which I chose the absolute most beautiful editions of. I never regret them.

Uranus into Pisces TODAY!

We're in the very final countdown to Uranus moving into Aries (4:49pm PST). This is the first I've seen of the exact time and so all day I have been attributing particular feelings to the shift.

I woke up early this morning to clear golden sunlight and dewy grass and felt sort of "changed" and also a little revved up and thought to myself, "Ah, this is it!" But I guess it wasn't. Sometime between noon and one I felt kind of jittery and a little odd and thought that must have been the transition but it turned out that was the Moon entering Gemini. Ok. So I just saw a post that does give the time of the shift as 7:49pm EST, which is just a few more minutes away, and now I am all wiggly with anticipation! Just wait until Neptune leaves Aquarius on April 4th, I am gonna celebrate for a week!

Interesting. I was just reading an article on Flavorpill (based on another article I haven't gotten to yet) about 10 sitcoms that will be funny for generations to come. One that is sited is Curb Your Enthusiasm described as "the recurring theme - that if we just did whatever we wanted instead of conforming to accepted etiquette, life would be chaos - is timeless." For whatever reason this sentiment somehow struck me as very rigid. Like........ I'm not sure how to describe it, sort of like makes me want to scream "Conspiracy theory!!!!" or something. I mean, on the one hand, certainly we're all conscious of being part of a huge community or society made up of smaller ones, etc. And then I get torn. Because really, life is incredibly chaotic. Many people just do whatever they want. In fact, we've been told that we should do everything we want if we want to be happy and successful.  In whose world are things so orderly that people don't do or say things that surprise us? The government, the highest people working and living by these rules. What is their way of resolving issues? I declare chaos on you. In many ways war is intended, I suppose, to be a very complex order (think of it as the two angry neighbors stalking across their respective front lawns, fists clenched but in this case it's really a gang, gathering up all the men in the one country to go next door and kick this other countries ass) but in reality it is utter chaos of the most horrifying kind. Which brings me to the horrible thought: when President's and Prime Minister's and King's and Dictator's and whoever else has a stake in it, are hearing reporting on the news about the number of soldiers that have been lost, are they seeing it as a scoreboard or are they seeing it as a human tragedy like the rest of us? Do they become like hardened criminals only seeing that the more men they lose the less powerful they'll be?

Uranus will move out of Pisces and into Aries tomorrow, I believe I may have posted something about this when I first began this blog because, coincidentally, it's supposed to have a significant effect on how I express myself. Uranus moved into Aries last spring for a few months, back into Pisces for a few more months and now is about to cross into Aries for good, for a few years, at least. In addition to obvious expression, I realized that this movement has also been very close to the time I first discovered tango through a hybrid class combining tango technique and ballet and now, as I've just begun to take formal (partnered) tango lessons just as this shift is preparing to happen again. As a on and off (these days) life long dancer of many styles I have to say that tango is the first thing that's made me feel really, really life myself in many years and I do hope (considering the significance of the timing) that it becomes an important part of my life. In honor of the shift and as a "toast" to fresh self expression: